I have always viewed my healing journey, my healing path as a road that goes forward with a few detours on the side. There are times I am going straight on the path, and there have been times when out of no-where, I was detoured off my path – and OH how frustrating can that be! Or maybe it doesn’t have to be a frustrating struggle; rather seen and looked at as a path less traveled to heal bigger wounds. Maybe instead of seeing these struggles as detours, maybe its more of a temporary path to – where I can…
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Projection is something that I sometimes struggle with, and something I have really struggled with the past couple of weeks. I am learning more and more about what projection is and why I struggle with it; how projection relates to me and my work in therapy. I read a wonderful article written by Morgan Sontag called “Things are not as they appear“. She explains how Projection is a defense strategy in which you unconsciously defend yourself against unpleasant impulses or feelings by denying their existence in yourself, while attributing it to someone else. Basically in a nut-shell, projection is “blame…
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I have been stuck in an emotional rut for the past 48 hours, and it’s been hard to move out of it. It’s not often that I get disconnected. Through the years of working in therapy I have really learned how to stay connected, even in the hardest of struggles. But then there are times when I get caught in an emotional rut and disconnection finds its way through me. The past 48 hours have been one of those times, and it’s frustrating not being able to pull out of it. It began with an anxiety attack I had in…
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When I saw that the 31 day “WORD” for the Five Minute Friday challenge month was “silence” I just had to use the word as a part of my writing today! Breaking the Silence is what I stand for! I am a CASA for ATLANTA (Court Appointed Special Advocate). I am a court-appointed advocates for abused or neglected children in order to provide children with a safe and healthy environment in permanent homes. I AM FOR CHILD! I am the voice for the children who don’t have a voice, or anyone to stand for their voice. Not only do I…
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It has taken me a very long time to accept that I have an inner young child within me; an inner child that everyone has, only mine is stuck and has been stuck since she was 5 years old! Stuck in the old messages, stuck in the old feelings, stuck in the old fears and disconnection. Stuck in the world where “no one is safe” “nothing is safe” and “everyone lies and hurts“. This year has been a lot of accepting of that inner young child work that I have been doing in therapy, and I can finally say “I…
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I have been working on a small art project, or at least trying to, and I haven’t had the courage to really dig deep into it, and I think fear is holding me back. Fear of not doing it good enough, fear it wont be what I hope for! The same thing goes with my writing in the blog. I used to write all the time, almost every day in my blog, and for some reason I have just come to a complete STOP! Fear of not doing it good enough, or finding the perfect words to say! My therapist…
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This month marks 8 years that I have walked this amazing path of healing in therapy with a wonderful wisdom filled therapist. It hasn’t been an easy 8 years, but it has been a liberating life changing 8 years. 8 years ago, I drove my car up this long and winding mountain side road heading towards this place I would spend the next 8 years discovering all the parts of me I never knew before. I remember this day like it was yesterday, but never did I think I would endure a journey quite like this. This journey that I…
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When I first began my blog about 6 years ago, I was very hesitant about others seeing what I wanted to write about; what my deepest thoughts were. So I started out the blog by talking about things that were easy, like – “how much I love my boys”, “Photos of the family” “every day little thoughts”, poems, quotes, just little things that people coule relate to. As I began to feel the blog water out, I began writing from my heart! I began to write about the past and all the haunting stories that fill my soul even today.…
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I saw this quote last weekend and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since! This quote really opened my heart and my mind to so many things around me; especially looking back on this hard year I have had. The quote was this: “Our eyes are not just viewers they are also projectors that are running a 2nd story over the picture that we see in front of us all the time! Fear is writing that script, and the working title is “I will never be enough”. When I read that quote it was like something huge…