sleep thrashing and nightmares

September 30, 2013Karen Courcy

4593307645_c745f8485d_m I woke up yesterday morning and noticed I had a huge huge bruise on the inner part of my thigh, and it worried me, and not only did it worry me, but it triggered me.

So I did some research and talked to a close therapist friend of mine about it, and she helped me to understand it a little more.

I had another nightmare Friday night into Saturday this past weekend, only this time my oldest son Christopher heard it happening and got worried and stood in the room with me for a while until I fell back to sleep.

This is my 2nd nightmare of not only waking up crying, but intense vivid horrific actions from my past happening all over again.

When I woke up Sunday morning I saw that I had a bruise, I panicked! I talked to a close friend of mine who also is a cognitive therapist and she told me about “Sleep Thrashing” and that is probably how I got the bruises.

I am not sure if I have mentioned this before or not, but I am very protective of my body. When I sit down, I must have a pillow on my lap. I have been that way since I was little. I must have something covering my lap area and if I don’t I feel very uncomfortable.

When I talk about something difficult in therapy, I will put my hands down to cover and protect my private areas. When my therapist holds my hand to connect while talking about something hard, my other hand will go straight for protection and my therapist will then ask me “what are you protecting yourself from?” and he will help me be aware of it.

This is something I struggled with for a long long time.

When I was younger I had bruises in my thighs all the time and I imagine it was from the sexual abuse and physical abuse I endured, and it only makes sense that I could have gotten the bruise in my sleep this past weekend from thrashing and protecting myself.

I sat with it for a while and it makes sense, and it also makes me sad.

My therapist and I plan to work hard this week on trying to get to the bottom of where these sudden intense dreams are coming from. He truly feels that it has something to do with surfaced emotions from the younger part of me that are here wanting to be heard and honored and felt.

I am not one that deals with nightmares or thrashing. Waking up crying once in a while out of my sleep, yes, but this is intense and it’s triggering as well, and when it comes to it being physical, that scares me, and it hits WAY too close to home.

I really wonder what is going on inside. What needs voice? what emotions are here at the surface. I wonder what part of the young part inside needs comfort and support and why is it here so BIG?

I see my therapist later on today and I hope to really touch base on this. I am the type of person that when I understand something, its manageable .. when I don’t understand something its big and feels bigger in fear.

I never experienced anything like this before in my sleep, and I hope I can figure out what it is and give name to whatever is here and needs voice or emotion.


  • Caitlin

    October 1, 2013 at 2:19 AM

    I’m not sure whether this might be the cause, but I have heard that sometimes bruises and injuries can manifest as a part of body memories. I know that sounds impossible, but then again, how do these injuries appear? I didn’t really believe until my legs hurt so much that they would actually buckle and I would be unable to walk, seeing is believing I guess.

    On a happier note I love love love your blog, and look forward to reading more of you wonderful posts!


    1. KarenBeth

      October 1, 2013 at 2:33 AM

      WOW!! you know, I never thought of that … thank you for giving me that thought.. I will have to think about that and look to how that may be the problem.. thank you … and welcome to my blog .. nice to meet you 🙂 I am glad we can connect

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