back towards my path . . .

March 7, 2012Karen Courcy

There are moments in my work in therapy that we call “sitting’. Some people may call it “stuck” or “plateau” but I like to call it sitting.

Being stuck reminds me too much of the past and how they had control over me. Sitting for me means “being in the hard”; “In the weakness”.

I have had a tough week and a half. Ever since I opened up the wound to my surfaced emotions, It’s been hard to close that wound shut, to go onto the next wound.

The many emotions that I have been experiencing in the past week have been so hard and raw, that I had no choice but to “sit”. I had no choice but to sit in the weakness.

Today when I was in session, I looked over at my timeline book which sits on top of my hope box on the desk. I noticed it had a few small papers on it, and maybe even collecting a little dust. I thought in that moment “this is what I am doing, I am sitting, and all these old messages are collecting on top of me”.

Today after leaving, I decided I am going to pick up that timeline, dust it off, and open it back up. I am going to take the hand that is offered to me, get up from the sitting position I have been in for over a week now, and dust myself off of all the old messages that are trying to invade me while sitting.

This doesn’t mean I am not going to honor what is going on, or not honor the new surfaced emotions. It doesn’t mean that what I have done for work thus far is not good work. I have done great work, hard work, healing work, emotional work! It just means I need to stand back up and walk towards the next – no more sitting!

I have had a lot happen in the past week that has caused me to sit, and today I said NO MORE! I told my therapist “take my hand and get me out from the sitting position”.. I don’t even have to explain what that means, it’s known what that means.

So Friday I Will take the timeline book, I will dust it off, I will sit and listen to myself within, I will honor, I will gather the strength that I gained from this last battle, and I will walk again.

I am so incredibly blessed by all the support I have had in this blog! The support and the kind words and emails have been so incredible I blush at times! Thank you to all my support for walking this path with me.

Today I was reminded – I am strong, I will always be strong – whether I am sitting, standing ,running, falling or kicking! I just need to remind myself of the path I am on, and keep my eye on the light.


  • Stacy

    March 7, 2012 at 8:31 PM

    Amen to that last paragraph! You are strong and you are amazing!!!! 🙂

    1. Karen Beth Courcy

      March 7, 2012 at 9:24 PM

      Awwww thanks stacy!! I hope to see you at church sunday

  • Kathy

    March 8, 2012 at 12:09 AM

    Karen, I love that you call your journey a path, it gives it more meaning.

    Thank you for sharing that people can have harder days, good days, sad days, and even really bad days. You make it real, thank you


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