Tree’s remind me of connection. Tree’s have roots and branches that only grow by being nourished by water and light. The roots cannot get stronger if it’s not connected, and when it is connected, it grows bigger and stronger.
Connection has and always will be a huge part of my healing. It’s been the core foundation of my healing for almost 6 years now – it’s what we do, it’s what I have come learned, and it’s now something I try and accept.
Today as I was out and about with my husband I got a text from my Therapist reminding me of the connection; that the connection was good and I was good. When I got that text, I stopped doing what I was doing, I took it in, re-grounded myself, took a deep breath and smiled.
It came at a good time because I was starting to let the hecticness and busyness of life and post holidays pull me in again, and he reminded me to stay grounded; that connection is here – so tonight I am writing and connecting.
There is this quote from the bible that reminds me about connection and “not doing it alone” and it reads:
“As the branches, if separated from the parent stock, could produce no fruit, but would immediately wither and die, … God can do without man, but man cannot do without God.”
This makes so much sense to me. I once heard my priest say in the homily “the moment you start to live life thinking you can do it alone, is the day you are truly doing it alone“.
Connection is about letting others in, and letting yourself out. I sometimes get caught in the old messages from my past, I need to do it alone, or it’s not safe to reach out to others. Those are old messages, but time and time again those old messages creep in and I pull in, and like today I was reminded once again that connection is around me, I just need to accept it.
This has been a very busy break, and it’s hard to believe it’s almost over already, but I do have to say this break is the most I have stayed in connection not only with my support, or friends and family, but most importantly MYSELF.
I will continue to stay in connection as I look forward to ringing in the new year with friends and family and of course more food – but I will also stay connected and remind myself that if I come back to my center, this is where the connection is, RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW.
I responded back to my therapist and said “I am so blessed for the connection around me, these are the things I hold onto in the good and the hard”.
This is a reminder tonight that I cannot do it alone and connection is where I grow and heal.
December 29, 2012 at 11:21 PM
Great insights and reminders!
My reflex is to try to do it alone. Sure there are some things I am capable of doing alone. But the important parts of life seem to go best when including others some how.
Having had some rough times in childhood and not trusting adults, it seems natural that I have a learned reflex not to trust. But it’s not a good way to live NOW. And I have been learning to remind my self that I can now protect myself if there is something potentially harmful. I know this might sound like an anxious way to live. I am working on being more aware of the fear based reflexes and it’s taking time to unravel and find a new more trusting way to live.
Thanks Karen, your writing continues to be inspiring and uplifting!
December 30, 2012 at 12:54 PM
Gel – isn’t it amazing what damage a childhood can do to our being today as adults. It’s amazing what one important message as a child makes all the difference today as an adult.
I think as children our vulnerability is so wide open that it creates the path for the rest of our life as adults. it molds us to how we will handle life as adults, and that has been corrupted severely and we are struggling to hold onto hope.
Protecting ourselves shouldn’t be something we have to think about as adults, and it’s sad that some of us have to live that way.
I am working on another blog writing for later today (yes I am on a roll) lol I got the itch to write a lot this weekend, but its about dependency.. I am counter dependent which gets in the way of healing because I am always protecting myself.. it’s sad, but its also a WISDOM filled way for us to care for ourselves.
Thank you for your response Gel 🙂
December 29, 2012 at 11:29 PM
connection connection connection! such a huge thing in life isn’t it? Your therapist is right, it’s about the connection to others, allowing yourself to be open to all the possibilities around you.
Trees are a form of connection, and I am so glad that you see it, and better yet starting to accepting it.
December 30, 2012 at 12:55 PM
Hanna! CONNECTION BUENO, DISCONNECTION NO BUENO 🙂 hehehe
THank you Hanna for always being on my side