saying goodbye to my blog (NOT SO FAST)
Check back for the newest blog writing on why my blog is NOT going down. Sometimes when things trigger me, or I sense something is not right, I tend to JUMP the gun and head for cover right away.
with much talking it over with my therapist and with my support, I have decided to keep my blog up.. I will see things differently, act differently around the way I feel safety around having my blog up.
My therapist reminded me today to be patient that time will fade this out.. and I trust all around me that I can write the way I want to write and not worry about what is going on in the background..
I just want to WRITE.. thats all I want.. and I will continue you too.. be on the lookout for my new blog posting tonight.. and what my plans are going forward.. I am thankful for the outpoured support.
July 12, 2012 at 1:57 AM
Karen – HUGS!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so sad that your blog is closing down, but I also see that you are doing this for the greater good for YOU!
There are great things ahead, and I cannot wait to hear about it through emails and texts 🙂
LOVE YOU GIRL! and your therapist is wonderful to support you through this and all that you have been through.
Im sad but happy
July 12, 2012 at 12:53 PM
Thank you SHANNON! I really appreciate your support
July 12, 2012 at 6:20 AM
Your blog is amazing and I am so sad it’s going down, I looked forward to reading it everyday, but if this means greater things for you, if this means no worries for you, than it’s worth it to have no blog to read.
thank you for giving us some hope to hold onto
July 12, 2012 at 12:53 PM
Anna, thank you so much, and yes you are right, no more worries, this is a new opening 🙂
July 12, 2012 at 7:53 AM
Karen – I have to say you had me in tears, and it takes a lot to make this “chick” come to tears. I am truly sorry that you need to take this step, but if this is whats needed to go forward, you have a whole world of support behind you.
You are such a special special woman, and you have changed many lives. I have read some of your blogs to my own clients, and made differences in my work as a therapist.
Others will miss out, and your writing will be greatly missed.
hugs to the strongest person I have ever known
July 12, 2012 at 12:56 PM
Thanks Hanna 🙂 Andy and I read my blog today in session, and all the comments.. I think Andy has a heart for you 🙂
I just decided that this is best to feel empowered.. I was triggered in the past and it came back and hit me again, and that is not something I am willing to go through again.. and plus, I have been blogging over a year now, I think it’s time to go in a different direction with this ..
It was an emotional session today, for both of us.. this has been hard, but SO READY to move on and this will only make my healing in therapy and OUTSIDE of therapy more empowered.
LOVE YOU Hanna
July 12, 2012 at 8:34 AM
You are a strong “Chick” and you will be heard in other ways….. I did love this blog and it helped me thru times…. I will miss it.
July 12, 2012 at 12:57 PM
Thank you Melissa… another person I grew up with 🙂 and I am so glad my blog helped you and I am so sorry that I have to let this go.. but know I am here for you ANYTIME you need it 🙂
July 12, 2012 at 8:49 AM
This is sad, and I am so sorry that you have to take this route. I know you have been through a lot in this Karen, and I am glad you are doing this for YOU and YOUR healing. God knows that what you are doing is right, and God also knows what is being done wrong, and God also supports and loves when you do the right thing. You are a strong person, and I admire you!
I am so sorry you have gone through so much pain in something that was suppose to be beautiful – you will find ways to shine, you always do
July 12, 2012 at 12:58 PM
Thank you Lisa.. it’s funny because my therapist calls this new stage of my healing “the dancing path”.. and I believe that.. this was the next step in making that happen.. I dont need to be sitting here worried about triggers happening – this is supposed to be a place where I heal, and honestly the worry around it is just not worth it.. we have ways of speaking my voice in other ways, and I am excited…
July 12, 2012 at 9:49 AM
This is just one more step in your healing! When God closes a door, he always opens the next one for you. He has a path in mind for you that will move you on to bigger and greater things! So glad this decision has been made for your healing and know that we are all with you every step of the way!! 🙂
July 12, 2012 at 1:00 PM
Stacy.. you are SUCH A good friend, and YES when ONE DOOR closes, another one OPENS and I truly believe God has put me on this path for a reason. Thank you for being there for me, hearing me, and just knowing how much this blog meant to me.
People have said to me “but aren’t you letting the trigger WIN?” .. NOPE I am the winner in this.. because I am caring for ME , and Andy agree’s and so doesn’t my husband and my close support.. I WIN..
July 12, 2012 at 11:16 AM
Will certainly miss reading how the healing is going for you, but I want you to do what’s best for you and will be understanding and supportive in your decision! Know this helped you out for the time it was up, but just saddened of the things you also had to go through with it. Your healing will continue to flourish!!
July 12, 2012 at 1:02 PM
Heather, THANK YOU.. I saw your post on my facebook as well.. your friendship means the world to me.. I will miss the blog, but my writing doesn’t end, nor does my healing. Things have been so different in therapy in the past 4- 5 weeks, really GOOD energy and support.. and I am focusing on THAT rather than THIS.. I am OK about this.. I really am and look forward to what is ahead .
July 12, 2012 at 3:11 PM
Aww Karen, I am sorry to see your blog go down, it was such an inspiring piece to read always. I hope that you are going to put yourself out there again sometime, we love to read your blog.
It sounds like you went through some ordeal to get to this point of taking it down, and I hope that by doing this, it relieves you of that.
I am thinking of you and hope you best in your therapy and healing going forward
July 12, 2012 at 4:14 PM
Gracie, it’s WORTH taking it down, trust me. The freedom I will have in my heart, soul, and in therapy will be THAT much greater. My therapist has made me see that this is not ME losing, this is ME winning! the “trigger” loses, NOT ME.. I have the choice to move myself away from the possibilities, rather than stay around unhealthy possibilities.. I would rather MOVE ON in other ways and I have wonderful support to help me through that.
I will miss you too 🙂
July 12, 2012 at 3:26 PM
Oh my goodness–Karen! Off you go, just as our hello’s began! Thank you for your inspiring words and spirit–may Heavenly Father bless you on this new part of your journey; and my you always dance in the sunlight and joy of the Savior! Merida K.
July 12, 2012 at 4:10 PM
Merida – our friendship can remain always 🙂 .. I have only BEGUN 🙂
July 12, 2012 at 10:04 PM
You’re an amazing woman of strenth and determination that I admire and have found myself looking to in some dark days. Your words have helped me express to others the EXACT way I was feeling internally but couldn’t quite make someone else understand. You’ve been with me the quietness of my home, my personal therapy, my detox, even in my car read on my cell your blog. I’ve re-read your blog and printed off copies to keep on file and will do a few more tonight before to close it down hopefully. For me not ever meeting your in person, you sure have been a lot of places with me! I respect your decision to close this site. I know this isn’t the last of Karen…you have SO much more to give! Your a WARRIOR & a WOMAN of GREAT STRENGTH! Thank you for reaching out to this California girl that came to you for help. You have done more than I ever expected for someone you didn’t know. I’ve trusted you and held my hurts very safe. You’ve taught me a lot but the best thing and the most memorable of your writings for me was, “The Sunspots!” I will keep finding my own “sunspots” and tell others about them!!
I’m still on this journey but healing more because I found you as my friend!
Love to you,
Dancing in the “sunspots”
July 12, 2012 at 11:28 PM
Oh Karen, I am so sorry your blog is going down, this must have been a hard decision and something hard for you to do. I am sure you will find other ways for your voice to be heard. theres always your book
Thinking of you