31 days of Reflection {day 9} care

October 9, 2014Karen Courcy

lonely-heart I am blending in my 31 day challenge and Five Minute Friday tonight!

The Five Minute Friday word is {Care} and I am also using the word Care as a part of my 31 days of reflection.


It has taken me years and year to accept support, care, love and connection. I don’t struggle to give it, I struggle to accept it.

7 1/2 years ago I walked into therapy and I had no idea what was going to be ahead of me on this healing path. I had no idea that I would ever believe in connection and connecting in care with others.

I always felt love and care was “conditional” .. that it came to me but only at a price. I never knew that care could be something I could freely accept just because for who I am.

When I first began therapy my therapist slowly began to teach me what “safe” touch was. Every session he would pull his chair a little closer to mine. He wanted me to get used to what it felt like to have someone “care” and not “abuse” that care while talking about my past.

Finally one day my therapist was sitting so close to me that he reached his finger out and told me to touch my finger to his, and there I was, making a personal connection while allowing myself to be seen and vulnerable.

It was a safe connection, and I learned so much about personal connection after that big moment for me. I didn’t numb out like I normally do when people approach me, and there I was, allowing someone to care and make a personal connection to me.

Here I am 7 1/2 years later and I can accept hugs, accept touch, accept others to embrace me in care and love. It took a lot of time to accept, but I finally realized that I was worth unconditional love, support and connection.

I have been married 23 years and have 3 amazing teenage boys, I have never had an issue loving and caring on them to death, but accepting was a whole different story. I would numb when people gave me hugs or tried to touch me. It took me a long time to trust my husband and even then there were moments I numbed out the past just to be present to the now with my husband.

Today it’s so different. Yes there are times I struggle with connection and my self worth, but it’s getting better the more and more I accept the care and support.

I realized that its just as important for me to accept love and care as it is for me to give it. Its a slow process, but one that I am embracing more and more.



  • lisawhatscooking

    October 10, 2014 at 12:45 AM

    “I never knew that care could be something I could freely accept just because for who I am.”
    Such powerful words and such a poignant and strong post. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability, the depths you have travelled on this journey.

  • Barbie

    October 10, 2014 at 1:09 AM

    I am so thankful that you have come to a place where you can accept love and care. You so deserve to be cared for.

    1. KarenBeth

      October 13, 2014 at 4:02 PM

      thank you barbie 🙂 that is so sweet of you 🙂

  • Melissa Kent Krueger

    October 10, 2014 at 9:41 AM

    It is a difficult journey to come to accept that love and care from others can be unconditional, and that we are deserving. I find myself still battling those feelings of not being worth it quite often. I’m glad to hear that you are finding your way along a positive journey, and wish you the best as you continue to heal.

    – Melissa

    1. KarenBeth

      October 13, 2014 at 4:01 PM

      Thank you Melissa .. I appreciate your connection back to my blog and my writing ..

  • Rachel Quigley

    October 10, 2014 at 10:32 AM

    What a beautiful story of healing. Thank you for sharing your journey!

    1. KarenBeth

      October 13, 2014 at 4:00 PM

      thank you Rachel … thank you for connecting with me and my blog writing 🙂

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