Taking a Leap of Faith
When I saw this quote of faith, I immediately thought about the journey I have been on for almost 5 years now. My leap was deciding that I wanted to heal inside, and it’s been a hard process thus far, hasn’t been easy. Wings are not easy to build when you are used to just falling, or better yet never having the courage to take the leap to begin with.
I have certainly had some support along the way. I don’t think any of us can take a leap without making sure someone is there to help in case you fall. Part of the leap is finding trust in someone who will be there.
Yes there are times I feel I am going to hit the ground and not build them in time. I feel at times I am never going to make it; that I have been defeated.. there are times when you just want to give up and hit the ground, because you are tired of the work – I have been there many times, but for some reason, there is always the “faith” that moves you to a place to where you believe you can make it before you do hit the ground – it’s called hope.
My journey has been a long one, and continues to be. I am thrown a challenge no matter how hard I work with it! I sometimes wonder if the effort is worth it? What if I hit the ground? What if I get hurt along the way? It’s scary, it’s unknown, it’s really unfamiliar.. and that has been a huge part of my healing; working around the unknown.
When I read this, I thought about how hard it was to take that Leap towards healing.. and then I think about how hard the healing has been, and what the healing will be like going forward; knowing how hard it’s going to be… but I have hope – that faith will lead me to more hope, and that will give me more courage, and more strength to keep going towards what I know is there – what I hope is there – what I have “faith” is there.