31 days of reflection {day 12} Sunday Psalms

This is by far one of my favorite verses from the book of psalms “but as for me, I will always have hope” Psalms 71:14 I truly believe God has gifted us with hope. Hope is not something we can learn, hope is not something that we can buy or bargain for. Hope is not something seen, but something believed in. Hope is like the wind, we can’t see it, but we can feel it when it hits us. Hope is something deep inside of us that God gave us from the very moment we took our first breath! Hope is my anchor on this healing path I have been on for 7 1/2 years now. Hope is something that I truly hold on to, because I believe something better is here for me. My therapist often asks me “how do you do it?” .. HOPE is always my answer. Hope that something will change, hope that I will move out of the struggles I suffer from. Without hope I don’t know where I would be. Hope is the light […]

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31 days of reflection {day 10} god will restore

8 years ago a good friend of mine and a pastor at the church I once went to (before I became Catholic) shared with me this verse from the bible that I will never forget, and that is: “God will restore what the enemy has taken from you” I believe this verse to be so true in so many ways for me. I see it happening everyday when God gives me the strength to get up and fight the day ahead. I see his work when I feel I can’t take one more step in the struggle. I see it in the people he places on my path, and the connection it creates. I truly believe God works hard to restore whatever damage has been done to our soul, and although it may not always look like what we want it to look like, it’s there if you truly believe in it. I sat here this morning and I wondered “what work has God done in me this week? and what can I thank him for?” Well I think he […]

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31 days of Reflection {day 9} care

I am blending in my 31 day challenge and Five Minute Friday tonight! The Five Minute Friday word is {Care} and I am also using the word Care as a part of my 31 days of reflection. (BEGIN) It has taken me years and year to accept support, care, love and connection. I don’t struggle to give it, I struggle to accept it. 7 1/2 years ago I walked into therapy and I had no idea what was going to be ahead of me on this healing path. I had no idea that I would ever believe in connection and connecting in care with others. I always felt love and care was “conditional” .. that it came to me but only at a price. I never knew that care could be something I could freely accept just because for who I am. When I first began therapy my therapist slowly began to teach me what “safe” touch was. Every session he would pull his chair a little closer to mine. He wanted me to get used to what it felt […]

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31 days of reflection {day 7} Deep in Thought

I saw this quote tonight and it took my breath away! “Go to where the silence is, and say something” . . that is a powerful quote; one that has a thousand meanings to me right now. Silence is often something that overcomes us, but what if we overcome the silence and “say something”. Fear stops us from being and doing, what if we go to fear and show fear no mercy! Disconnection keeps us alone, what if we go to the disconnection and connect! What if we go to the very things that stops us from being who we need to be or who we are intended to be, and do the very opposite of what tries to cover us? I thought about this more…. It opened my mind to many of the things I struggle with. Emotions, anger, fear, shame, isolation … I wonder what if I go to all these things I fear, and face it? what does that look like? What would it feel like? What if I took my fear of anger and yelled at […]

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