someone I admire; who inspires me everyday

ADISH4As a part of my Tuesday at Ten prompt “Who do you admire/who inspires you” it was so easy as to who I would write about as “this someone” has had such an impact on my life for the past 8 years.

This person who I admire and who inspires me is my therapist Andy; someone who has taught me so much, and has helped me to see the things I could never see before I took the steps to healing.

Andy is such a wonderful person who has so much to teach and give others; someone who uses that god given gift as a way to help people heal and live – just as he has done for me.

I look to his wisdom as a way to see things that are sometimes hard to see, and he inspires me to be a better person everyday because of his wisdom and the person that he is.

Andy and I have been working alongside each other on this amazing journey for a little over 8 years now. 8 years healing alongside someone who inspires me to keep my feet on the path of healing moving forward on days where the path seems impossible to conqueror.

When I was as little as 6 years old, I remember sitting and rocking alone in the closet and praying to God that I wished I had someone I could trust telling all my big secrets to; the secrets that had me living in silence for so long. The secrets that kept the pain hidden deep within.

I remember asking God in a prayer for someone who could hear and help take away the big scary feelings that I was holding alone. This was an everyday prayer in between the abuse, pain and loneliness I endured day-to-day.

I imagined having a person who would hear my story, and keep that story in a safe box so I didn’t have to hold it alone; someone who would believe when others told me “no one ever will”.

30 years later, God finally answered my prayers. I look at it as, God knew I was strong enough to heal by taking those steps that lead me to this healing path – –ย  and awaiting on the other side of this journey was a God chosen therapist who would have such a huge impact on my life, and my healing journey; someone who is very near and dear to my heart.

From the moment I walked into the therapy room a little over 8 years ago, Andy has truly made me feel like this space of healing is mine; a place where using my voice would never be a consequence – yet met with love, care and support.

He has taught me so much about safe connection when connection didn’t feel safe. He has helped me to find and use my voice as a way to heal, and become the person that God created me to be.

He was someone who taught me what the touch ofย  “his finger to my finger” meant in connection and how that was the beginning of a safe connection and a safe relationship, and the beginning of big steps towards internal healing.

Taking that step into therapy was one of the most vulnerable scariest things I have ever done in my life; but because of the therapist and person Andy is, I found a place of true healing, and I still continue to every day as I take more and more steps through and forward.

Because of him, I found what connection to life meant; no longer being a prisoner behind walls of lies from the past.

I believe God chose my therapist Andy for this role he has had in my healing, and I am so grateful that God chose him.

God has truly given him a gift … I imagine so many other people have been touched and healed by his big caring heart and wisdom filled teachings – I know I have and I truly am honored to walk this path and continue to walk this healing path with him.

Thank you so much Andy for your wisdom, insight and guidance – – for your support care and big heart. God truly had a plan for you and you are living that plan by helping others to heal.

Therapy is a hard vulnerable process, but a process that I know has taken me to many different places on this journey that I could not do alone, and I am healing every day as a result of that ..

thank you so much Andy for being who you are. You are truly one of my favorite people.

5 comments

  1. This was a wonderful post, Karen!! I am tearing up thinking of the little girl hiding in the closet with all those terrible secrets…I am so happy you have Andy in your life to listen and share and understand and…help you get rid of the “little girl hiding in the closet” and find the beautiful woman that you have become. It may seem many years behind you, yet I am sure it still lingers…but, you ARE a survivor; you are surviving IN SPITE OF what happened years ago. Yes, the past stays with us in ways we may not be able to control; but, we don’t have to linger there; and I can sense you are moving on and away from that little girl. I am proud of you, my friend. I may not know you, but I feel I am learning more and more about the YOU that you truly are – the YOU that is growing beyond that little girl! WOW…where are these words coming from at “almost midnight”!!! Love you girl! {{HUGS}} and blessings…you have some celebrating to do coming up in just a couple of days!!! ENJOY!!

    Barbara

  2. Wow Karen, first off, so happy giddy cheerful to see you posted a blog tonight, I had to do a double-take.

    What a lovely beautiful post about your therapist. I am so glad that God has put you on a path that led to amazing healing and allowing you to find someone like Andy to trust.

    Andy sounds like a wonderful person and therapist, and so glad you posted this as a way to honor the work and yourself.

    Many Blessings

    Mary

  3. Karen Beth,

    Your story brought tears to my eyes. Me being a therapist I have to say I would be honored to work along side someone like you, and would be honored to read such words of how this 8 years of therapy has built such a healing journey of trust.

    Being a therapist sometimes we don’t hear how a client really feels and its so nice to read of such a great healing relationship.

    Thank you for sharing this, it inspires me to work even harder in my job as a therapist to my clients.

    your story is a blessing

  4. Karen, what a lovely story thank you for sharing this with everyone! You give hope to those who see therapy as a voodoo or a scary step to take. You write about someone who you admire and someone who inspires you, and yet you yourself are a person I look up to.

    Thank you for sharing this and giving others hope that therapy and finding a great therapist is possible. Andy looks and seems like a wonderful person, thank you for sharing him with us and your process.

    Laura :)

  5. Hi Karen. I just got the link to your blog writing for Tuesday at Ten and I absolutely love your story! I also have a therapist I have been with for about 5 years, and your words about your therapist are very very nice Karen. I am sure he will be honored and filled with grace around this. Thank you Karen for sharing this, and I am so glad that little girl in the closer found the healing she prayed for.

    Anna

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