one of those moments. . . .

Today in session my therapist shared something with me and opened up about something that really made me see and understand a struggle that I have dealt with this year.

It was pretty big and pretty powerful for me emotionally. I am sitting here tonight basking in the goodness that feels like a million Sunspots!!

I feel like the weight has been lifted off my heart and soul that I have been holding, and I can finally breathe in the belief that I am worthy, loved, and supported around something that has daunted me this year.

last night I wrote in my blog about going to church late at night and sitting in the sanctuary praying to God, and today was one of those moments where God showed up right when I needed him, and he showed up through my therapist and my place of healing.

I know I am speaking cryptically, but it’s something personal – but know this, when life whispers, listen closely.

What my therapist opened up about was something that made this little light switch go off in my head, and it was almost like blood flowing to frost bitten fingers; it tingles at first, but then it feels good and warm.

Last night when I sat in the dark sanctuary and ask God to give me a lift as I have been struggling with my emotions, never did I think he would show up in the way he did in session today.

The puzzle pieces have come together and so does my heart, soul and mind! I was once again reminded that this year was never about me, and certainly never my fault, and I can breathe that in.

Everyone who was in my presence today after my session actually told me they saw a GLOW that they haven’t seen in a long time – Eyes BIG, smile on my face, giggly and bubbly! I have tears talking about it, because this has been a DAUNTING year for me with many twists and turns and painful events.

Even my husband saw the glow, and to be honest, I think it even made my husband glow a little, as he knows what struggles have been with me throughout this whole year.

I am so blessed for my therapist and his support, care and love – for standing by my side and slowly day by day working through this like a huge knot that needed to be untied.

One of the things that has never changed in almost 6 years of working in therapy with my therapist is the great relationship we have – no matter how daunting or hard the work can be.

So although my blog is written vaguely and cryptically, just know I am happy and blessed and I am honored to share my happiness with those who care, love and support me.

8 comments

  1. Karen! I can see the GLOW from here and I am across the states!

    I cannot even begin to tell you how happy I am to read this blog tonight. I know this year has been tough for you, and it’s refreshing to see this side of you tonight! I almost felt as if you were going to jump out of the blog and HUG something!

    Good for you, and good for you for going to church and praying about it last night – you see, God does listen, you just needed to be patient and wait for him to show up in his time, not yours, but in his time.

    love you girl!

    1. Im still glowing – hours later.. I think the weekend will be good.

      You know about what has gone on Hanna and I really appreciate your imput and I have also shared with Andy, so he also thanks you for your support and imput .. you always lift me up in spirit.

      YES the prayer at church last night was amazing and I certainly feel God heard me loud and clear …. it felt good!

      Karen

  2. Karen – y0u have me curious girl, but I will say this, it’s enough to see that you are making movement with a huge smile.

    It sounds like you have a wonderful therapist, one that I wish I had a close relationship with, but I am so happy for you! Good for you and I can’t wait to read more about this movement you have made.

    Now you have me thinking of what kind of movement can I look for in my healing. – Jo

    1. J0 – Thank you … and yes I do have a smile tonight .. feels good. and I hope you can find your moment of movement in your healing too :) I Hope to read about it in your blog

  3. Oh, Karen
    I am sooo….. glad that our Pappa God has carried you over that huge hurdle.
    Bless you and remember that there will not be knots forever.
    Hugs XX
    Mia

  4. Karen it can’t get much better than this can it. I’m happy for you. Again I think of this as the best kind of richness…..spiritual wealth.

    You are showing that persevering through the difficult stuff is so worth it.
    Thanks. And I think you did a good job of getting the essence of your message across while being cryptic. (discreet?)

    1. lol Gel … well it wasn’t easy as I hate writing cryptically, but this is one of those things that “was” very private but yet I wanted to share the goodness! Healing is a hard process and whenever you can share the good, it’s healing too.

      Thank you, and even Saturday night I am still happy.. I finally get it, and the best thing is, I realize more than ever now this was never about me – I can stop blaming this year on myself, and my therapist made me see that Friday.

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