my hour with God

April 3, 2013Karen Courcy

Séminaire de CaenToday after I left session I went and sat in adoration at church for an hour.

Adoration in the Catholic Church is perpetual eucharist of the blessed sacrament. The bread of Christ is open and held inside what is called a “monstrance” which in Latin means ‘to show or to expose’.

The Eucharist sits on a table (like photo on the left) in the chapel and it holds the body of Christ and people go in the chapel and spend an hour just praying, reading, or just sit and listen to what God has to say to you.

It’s not an easy thing to do, it’s almost close to meditating. You are silencing your inner thoughts to allow Gods voice show up in you. It’s one on one time with God; your time with God as he looks right at you and honors your presence.

It’s a beautiful thing. Its one of the things I love the most about the Catholic Church, it’s available anytime I need it. On Saturdays they move the blessed sacrament into the sanctuary to where it’s put inside the tabernacle getting ready for Mass, and then it returns to the chapel on Monday morning.

They have guardians in the chapel during adoration .. no one ever leaves the blessed sacrement alone, God always has people in his presence. Every hour a new guardian comes in and sits with it, and people pass it off every hour on the hour.

It took me a long time to be able to sit in adoration for more than 15 minutes. For me, silence and time is an opening for triggers or bad thoughts. I am the type of person who is always on the go, busy, and needs to keep my mind going in other directions, because the moment I stop, it allows space for other things to creep in.

I have tried meditating in the past, but it always kicked up triggers for me, so I was never able to. Adoration is a little like meditating, but yet it’s different, it feels safer being in the eyes of God.

Today I sat for the first time in front of the perpetual eucharist in adoration for a full hour and I was pretty proud of myself. I sat with my journal book, my rosaries and I wrote a letter to God. It was the most moving things I have ever done.

I sat and wrote “Dear God” … I poured my heart out and it was so moving for me. I had tears, I cried, and I felt emotions – it was uplifting and refreshing.

When I left I felt lifted and so much goodness around me. I texted my Therapist and told him I just had spent an hour in adoration, and he kept saying how proud he was of me for going and doing that – he knows I struggle with time and silence, and it was also a big deal because I have found struggle in going to church as of lately.. this was big movement for me today – huge!

I made room in my heart for so much goodness  – another step out of the stuck. I let out the bad and let in the good.

My hour spent with God today was healing and I can’t think of anything better than spending a whole hour with God, just listening deep within, and having him listen to you.

I have a feeling this may be something I do more of .. maybe this is yet another step needed on the great path forward I am on.


  • Stacy

    April 4, 2013 at 7:47 AM

    Yay you! So glad you got to spend that time and that it was quiet and blessed for you! 🙂

    1. KarenBeth

      April 4, 2013 at 9:07 PM

      Thank you Stacy … you of all people know how hard it’s been to walk back into the church.. Sunday it was great to turn around and see you wave to me .. we both knew what that meant.. it was a good moment 🙂

      1. Stacy

        April 6, 2013 at 7:57 PM

        It was a great moment and I’m looking forward to more of them!! 🙂

  • Gel

    April 4, 2013 at 7:51 AM

    Karen this is beautiful to read. I feel so honored that you share this very private part of your spiritual life here. Thank you!

    I understand that part about being silent triggering painful thoughts/feelings. I have that too.

    I have had experiences of meditation with other people where I was able to be present without the inner turmoil taking over and I know that peace. I also have found that walking a labyrinth in a church has been a special way to commune with God and align myself in that quiet listening. I wrote about it here at my blog:

    Also I have found the ‘Centering Prayer’ guided by Fr. Thomas Keating, (….O.C.S.O. a Trappist monk and priest, known as one of architects of the Centering Prayer, a contemporary method of contemplative prayer, that emerged from St. Joseph’s Abbey, Spencer, Massachusetts, in 1975). Do you know about the Centering Prayer? I would think you’d love it. We have a guided centering prayer on CD with Keating leading it and I love sitting in stillness while listening to this.

    I like this …”.another step needed on the great path forward….”

    1. KarenBeth

      April 4, 2013 at 9:07 PM

      Thank you Gel .. I will for sure go and read your blog about the meditation …

      I appreciate all the info you gave me 🙂 I had a feeling you would know what this blog meant to me …

  • shortybear

    April 5, 2013 at 6:59 AM

    Such lovely words from a lovely heart.

    1. KarenBeth

      April 5, 2013 at 7:10 PM

      thank you shorty 🙂

  • godschick

    April 5, 2013 at 6:12 PM

    Beautiful blog…..really beautiful. I love it.

    1. KarenBeth

      April 5, 2013 at 6:58 PM

      thank you…. I appreciate that 🙂

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