in {this} moment

July 24, 2013Karen Courcy

being_in_the_moment-e1357185176955Today in session I decided to let go of the fight to make something different NOW, and instead be with what is and let that be the healing guide going forward.

Most of you know that I have had a very tough year this year. I have gone through a lot of self isolation, and I have been working so incredibly hard to move out of the many things that last year surfaced for me that were hard.

And although it’s been a needed healing process, it’s been a slow and hard process.

Sometimes I want something to feel better right now! I will sometimes say to my therapist Andy “ok what can we do to make it better now, I want something to change right now” and not realizing it, it’s not about a “doing”it’s about “being”.

Today in session instead of looking for a way out of the hard and making some master plan on how I will do that, I decided to just let today be with no plan, and believe it or not, it felt good to not put an expectation on myself to be at this place or that place or feel this way or that way.

My therapist and I sat together today and just talked about the now, heal the now, fight for the now, and eventually the “doing” part will happen on its own.

I saw this quote today and it made so much sense.. the quote:

you must first realize the prison of your mind before you can escape it“.

Sometimes we need to understand the place we are in before we can move forward out of it. For me I want something to feel better now, sometimes not realizing that even in the now healing is happening it just doesn’t feel like it at first.

Have you ever been on a plane and you look out the window and look down at the small world you are flying over and you feel like your moving very slow, but yet the plane is actually going over 500mph? I look at my healing journey like that.. it’s hard to see that you are moving when you are moving so fast, but your moving.

I have been in therapy working with my therapist for 6+ years now, and sometimes I need to step back and see where I was in order to see how different things are now, and it’s amazing how far I have come, and in those moments it’s so important to honor the now in this moment more than ever, because it only sets up for something to change going forward.

There are some-days I just throw my hands up in frustration or sadness, and then there are the days I am blessed and so incredibly elated that I moved through something so hard that healed yet another wound.

Today instead of thinking of fixing something now, or making something good happen now, I sat with what was here and I noticed that I feel a lot lighter, more free, and more willing to be gentle with myself in the hard moments when they come through the day.

My therapist said to me today “by you allowing yourself to be with what is in this moment instead of looking for something to feel better right now, gives me an openness to be by your side without the desperateness to get you out of the hard feelings in the very moment”

It makes sense .. because instead of my therapist having the pressure to get me out of a hard feeling or moment, he was able to be present with me and hear me, and help me move along in the moment, and I have to say it was healing on SO MANY levels today.

This healing journey of mine has many many paths that are good, hard, sad, frustrating, moments of despair, moments of joy and happiness and in order to heal and move forward I need to honor and feel all of it – even the worst at times.

Sometimes it’s not about doing, it’s about being and that is what today was for me.

Don’t run too far from your shadow, because you need it to see where you are.


  • Shannon

    July 24, 2013 at 4:58 PM

    Thank you for this post Karen! You bring to light something I go through in my own therapy. I like you want to feel better NOW sometimes, and when I can’t get there, it’s so hard to keep moving.

    You have really helped me to see that being in the now is sometimes needed to move forward! I will have to give that a shot and see where that goes. Thank you so much for your honesty and truth in your healing.

    God Bless,


  • Gel

    July 25, 2013 at 10:44 AM

    This reminds me of something I realized….it’s only in the present that we can connect with God. And I’d add that it’s in the present that we connect with our friends and allies too.

    You write well about this topic. It does seem like a natural instinct to want change as soon as possible when we are suffering. So I guess it’s a part of growth to learn that slowing down and being more present with the hard stuff is actually what is healing in the realm of the emotions and the spirit.

    Thanks for this topic. It’s good to be reminded and I love how you write about it.

    1. KarenBeth

      July 25, 2013 at 12:06 PM

      Thank you Gel .. and you know, it worked … sometimes in the moment its hard because you want a result right in the moment.. but yesterday I learned this is it. right here right now how I feel what I think in this very moment will set u for goodness going forward… today is a good day because yesterday I sat in the now … interesting 🙂

  • Cat

    July 26, 2013 at 1:07 PM

    Isolation is my best friend but also my biggest foe.

    I love what you have written. The ‘here and now’ is something that has been trying to get into my life for a couple of years, but it is so very difficult when we are at battle with the past. It takes enormous self-discipline, of which I have little. Without doubt, it is the key to a happier and contented future.

    Your quote reminded me of one from yesterday
    “If killing yourself is not an option anymore, you have to sink into the darkness instead, and make something of it”

    In recent days, by observing how life is in the here and now, I have realised just how far I have come in 18months. It’s nice to read such a positive post that validates that thought process.

Please take a moment to comment! I love connecting with others!

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