God given {strength}

52cda585b70525a3469af397879c55d2Monday I awoke the feeling of sadness, unworthiness, and feeling not good about myself! I felt horrible inside – not good enough.

This has been a struggle for me off and on for the past year, it has been a part of the work in therapy for the past couple of months now.

I went into therapy that morning and opened up to my therapist about not feeling good enough! He understands this struggle as I have been struggling with it for quite some time now.

These feelings filled the room Monday morning and the room was quiet as I silently prayed to God to give me some strength through the day.

GOD SHOWED UP – every step of the way throughout the day. It was hair-raising!

It began when I went to the store and this woman complimented me on the shirt I had one, and I thanked her and smiled.

I then got a message from someone that was filled with beautiful words of understanding and I wondered where that came from.

I then went to the craft store and this little girl who was about 7 or 8 years old was standing next to me and she said “you are so pretty” .. I blushed because it came out of no where as her mom sweetly smiled at her daughters outward-ness towards me.

I then check my facebook and I got this sweet sweet message on my wall from a woman named Helen that was just touching to the soul.. saying how I have helped her and what a good person I am..

I stopped for a moment and I said “ok God, I see what your doing, thank you” …

and it didn’t s top there … I got more compliments through the day and I began feeling m hair raise on my arms at the thought that God is telling me “you are worthy Karen, I want you to see that”.

I began to see all these series of events happening through the day and I was reminded by my therapist that God speaks to us through others, and it wasn’t until today that I REALLY saw that..

Today I logged onto my Facebook and saw a message that I didn’t see Monday, and it was around 2pm (the same time I was getting all those other wonderful messages from all sorts of people, and she left me the most heart warming message and it was that moment I realized GOD truly was showing me something Monday … and today was a reminder that he was there, walking along side of me in my unworthiness all day to show me what I was and what I wasn’t.

God given strength is what showed up Monday and even right now as I write this. God see’s our pain and finds ways to relay messages of hope to us, and I truly believe that even more so today. I am touched that God chose to walk with me on a day I felt so lonely and unworthy to show me what I needed to see

… how I feel are just feelings and the truth is, I am worthy of being and belonging!

Thank you God for walking with me not only Monday in the hardest of days, but everyday. Thank you to all those who reminded me of who I am in your life and allowing God to speak through you giving me more hope as I take steps out of this hard place I have been in.

I am BEYOND BLESSED.

14 comments

  1. In our home, we call those God happenings “God stickers”. You probably would have gotten those stickers anyway, but I’m so glad you were pricked in your spirit to recognize those love messages as from your Creator, Father….the One who loves you more than you could ever fathom!

  2. I love this! It’s so reassuring to know that when you ask for help and strength, you will get it, and if you’re paying attention you will see it. So glad you felt God there for you when you needed it.

  3. It sounds like you were given a whole lot of reminders of your worth. I understand the struggle and I’m glad you were able to recognize all the times you were seen as more than worthy.
    Traci

    1. Hi Traci … Thank you and yes I was reminded … and I have been trying to hold onto it.. it’s hard but it’s nice to know God was with me and still is :) thank you for your comment :)

  4. What a beautiful story. God loves to swoop in when we need Him most and your story is proof of this. Praying for you and your journey of knowing that you are beautiful and loved. Blessed you joined The Weekend Brew.

    1. Hi Mary and thank you for stopping by my blog :) thank you for the nice comment :) hope to see you more over here as well.

  5. How awesome…God IS an awesome God…always on time and always there when we need Him (my moment – whether it’s a “God Happening” or “God Sticker” like Lisa B. said above, or an God (or A-Ha) moment, as I’ve heard it called – He sends us the messages we need to hear!! And, you ARE a beautiful and caring and lovely/loved young woman!!

    Thank you for sharing your heart – and for keeping us together…for Tuesday @ Ten and your new FB page Together We {BLOG}!!

    1. Hi Barbara .. YES the AHA moments … I love those moments when you KNOW God is on your side :)

      you are so welcome for the connection.. I love the connections I have made and continue to make .. thank you as always for being a part of that :)

  6. Praises to our God who strength and power are displayed in our weaknesses! I’m so glad He was so tender with you when you needed it most. And, P.S. I love the look of your blog – so pretty!

  7. Glory by to God! <3 He is always there to help us when we need him! I am so happy He helped you through your day, and made you feel like you are a beautiful daughter of Christ, because you are!! Wonderful post, and beautiful story! Thank you for sharing!!

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