five minute friday {writer}

a2a29ec3b3b4d9bfeb9f72e72675175fWelcome to Five Minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing.

No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours. Set the timer and write away! Stop at the 5 minute mark no matter where you are!

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {WRITER}

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{I know that this is last week’s Five Minute Friday, but I was sick last week and didn’t write and I couldn’t pass up on such a GREAT word seeing that this is a huge part of who I am . . . I am a writer and I have been writing a part of my story since I was 5 years old.. so here goes}

I have been writing and using words to express my feelings since I was as little as 5 years old. Writing is all I had to get words out that I was holding because I couldn’t express myself the way I wanted to as a child.

Being a victim of child sexual abuse, silence is one of the many painful stipulations, and although I was told to keep quiet about many things, I found ways to express what I needed to express – even if no one else saw it.

I would go into my closet and write, and write and write and I would hide the papers inside a hole in the wall that I created behind the piles of clothes so that no one found them.

My closet was my sanctuary to where I would go to express – be – write – and be whoever I wanted to be without anyone telling me otherwise. My therapist today tells me that it was brilliance what I did as a child, and those moments of writing saved me. Those moments of writing kept me sane, those moments of writing grounded me to my sense of self not allowing the abusers to corrupt who I really was outside the abuse I endured.

Today, I still use writing as my outlet – although I don’t sit in a closet or hide pieces of papers in a made-hole in the wall, I now write to connect with others and to express my internal silence.

I am working on a book (very very slowly), and I hope to someday tell my story the way it needs to be told, so that others out there who want to stand up with their story will have the courage to know they are not alone, and that writing and being a writer to your story is healing and connecting.

I love to write! I find that when I struggle internally, I find such ease in putting my feelings and emotions out there not just for others to see, but for me to see and to witness my own self and what it is I am struggling with.

I would consider myself to be a writer. I may not be perfect at it, and I may not have the perfect writing structure, but this is my writing and my true self – just the way I was told not to be as a child.

I hope that my writing helps others out there to know that you are not alone, and your story, words, feelings and emotions matter and you no longer have to be silenced . . . your WORDS matter!

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2 comments

  1. Hey there… I am glad you went with your heart and wrote on Writer! (Although – I’d love to read your take on Paint as well!) So glad that God is smart and gives us ways to cope and express and hang out, even in the darkness. He paints a story with our lives and gifts us with tools to paint pictures with our words, our hands, our hearts… and what a gift to know your true self – to step into that! It’s so freeing! Bless you, friend!

    1. aww thank you SO MUCH! I love connecting with others.. thank you so much for visiting my blog and your kind words. I think I will write about PAINT.. I may need to think about how that pertains to me :) thank you for encouraging me

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