{building bridges not walls}

Walking into therapy over 5 years ago was one of the biggest risks I have ever taken in my life. It was one of the most vulnerable things I have ever done as well.

I have spent my life behind walls. I had walls so high, I had to build new ones to look over the walls I had built since I was a child.

My therapist said to me once “your walls were so high when you first came in, I couldn’t even see you”. I took the risk everyday to take those walls down, and turn them towards trust.

The risks I take today are turning each wall into bridges! Allowing people to come to me, and for me to go to them – called connection.

One of the biggest things that my therapist and I constantly work with is “connection”. It’s been the core foundation of my healing, and every time I connect, I take risks. I turn the wall, into a bridge of connection, and it’s healing for me.

My risk today is allowing myself the support, love and care from everyone around me, and not build walls to do it myself. I risk the trust, I risk the fears inside.. and more times than not the risk turns into something very healing and helps me to take a another bridge towards connection.

Today I am proud that I am able to reach out and connect anytime I need it.. some days are harder to accept than others and I build that ankle size wall, but the risk is knowing it’s there, and the bigger risk is “accepting it”.


 

8 comments

  1. You are so brave. So very brave for looking risk in the face and choosing to accept it.

    Stunning write! I saw your heart here. such beauty…

    1. Thank you Nikki, that means alot to me.. when I saw the word “RISK” I was in AWE because it’s so easy to write about that, because I know that risks I take everyday.

      Thank you :)

    1. Kathy :) thank you so much! yep, moving forward no matter how hard.. keep showing up.. showing up to the truth!

      Thank you for your nice comment!

  2. I just love your post. I love that you are open and honest and it is really nice to hear someone say that therapy can be risky. As someone who has spent more than ten years in and out of therapy to deal with a multitude of issues I understand that it can be really risky to be raw with someone and let them know what hurts you. Good luck building more bridges and enjoying what they bring. =)

  3. Karen, I absolutely LOVE your blog. I have taken your advice about setting up a blog of my own. Thank you for reaching out to me and joining my Facebook page….Forgiving Oneself Before Forgiving The Abuser. You are a great inspiration to myself and many others. Again, thank you!

  4. I love your green box to the side that talks about it wasn’t you’ve been through….I feel that completely. I have been there and also through therapy. So glad that you were able to do and feel freedom on the other side. Thank you for sharing. We all need sister’s who have gone before us to reach back

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