Five Minute Friday {Broken}

229161Welcome to five minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing.

No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours.

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {Broken}

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When I began therapy over 6 years ago I thought I was there because I was broken, damaged, and tainted.

One of the hardest things I have ever done in my life is take that first step into therapy and tell my story because when you grow up believing everything that happened was your fault, you believe it. When you are told over and over again that you are the problem, that stays inside for a very long time.

It wasn’t until a couple of years ago that I truly started to understand that I wasn’t the broken one, it was those who hurt me that were broken, and that is what therapy was about, not fixing me, but understanding where the broken-ness was and to heal from that.

There are days that I still struggle with the belief that it’s not me and I need reminding from those around me who love and care about me. Those old messages were so painful that sometimes it’s hard to break through that old lie, and then there are days I truly see it, and truly see those who hurt me for who they are.

Therapy for me is not about fixing me, but about finding the truth and my worth so that I can heal, and it took me a long time to actually admit to that, feel worthy of that, and accept that.

There is this bible verse that I love and that is “God will restore what the enemy has taken” .. and in that I truly believe God has helped me to restore the belief that I am not the broken one, I am good enough and I am healing that lie that I am not everyday.

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9 comments

  1. Wonderful post. Thank you for sharing. I love the amazing journey you are on to healing and can see God working through you. You tackle tough issues with grace and joy. So many people struggle with feeling broken or wrong or tainted for many reasons. Thank you for sharing and helping others to not feel alone. Thanks again, have a wonderful day!

  2. As I read this I felt a lot of admiration for you in your journey. It seems you have taken something so difficult and are making it into something of beauty…not what happened to you in the past but how you are living the healing process.

    To fix or to heal?…the way you wrote about this makes me think about what is the difference. To ‘fix’ implies something is broken and it sounds like it’s a machine being repaired. To heal is about a living being who is already whole. I never thought of the difference before. This might be what you are communicating…it’s what came to my mind.

    Thanks for sharing the 5 minute process.
    Blessings on your way.

    1. Gel,

      Thank you and I never used to see the difference before either.. to fix something means there was something broken, but there isn’t.. it’s not about us being broken, it’s about something being done to us because of “THEIR” brokenness.. we are just hurt and hurt can be healed. If anything I have learned that going through what I have been through makes me not broken, but stronger .. healing is about mending the emotional scars that were put upon me from the brokenness of others and their wrong doing.

  3. Therapy is “about finding the truth and my worth so that I can heal” – so true. Beautiful words and a great FMF post! Many blessings on your continuing journey.

  4. I’d never heard that Bible verse, and it’s very powerful — as are your words. I hope you continue to heal, and grow, and revel in the fact that you aren’t broken. :) that is a wonderful, wonderful thing to realize!

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