five minute friday {bare}

downloadWelcome to five minute Friday to where us bloggers are given a word prompt and write for just 5 minutes simply for the joy of writing.

No editing or backtracking. No need to be perfect. Just words freely flowing from my heart to yours.

Today’s Five minute Friday word is {BARE}

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When I began therapy 6 years ago, I never thought there would be a process to become “bare” in order to heal.

Never did I think it would be so incredibly hard to tear down walls that surrounded me; walls that kept in the lies and fear that if I spoke how I felt, or spoke the truth, there would be endless consequences, endless pain, endless shame and guilt.

I spent years tearing down those walls, and I am finding that there were walls behind the walls, that is how deep my pain is.

I found out recently that the wounds go deeper than I could ever imagine, and there will have to be a process of “bare” to get to them.

I have come to realize in the past couple of months that I had walls built around walls, and there is something big that came to the surface, and I know I will have to bare the walls to honor its presence.

Sometimes it feels impossible to move through. There were times  in the past that I wanted to run home and crawl under a rock after a session because I had no idea how horrible it felt to be bare to all these emotions that I kept to myself for years and years.

What I have learned in the years of healing is that sometimes you need to bare the old, in order to become a-new. I have to become bare to myself, in order to fully accept me and who I am underneath all the pain.

It’s like opening up old wounds and letting it bleed, and finding a way to heal it more gently. It’s like re-breaking a bone so that it can heal correctly – it hurts like hell, but there is healing somewhere inside, there is a process of coming together inside … that is what my healing journey has been about – and still going forward.

Thinking back to when I first started to heal and come forward, being bare was horrible, fearful, and sent me into a spiral of emotions I couldn’t handle (or thought I couldn’t handle), but as time went on, and I learned to go behind the walls and face it – being bare was more of a healing vs a fear.

Today I am learning more and more that when I allow myself to be bare to my emotions, that is where the TRUE healing happens.

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10 comments

    1. Actually, it’s like ripping off a band-aid VERY slowly and realizing there is more to rip off even though you know how painful it is. It’s not an easy process, but somewhere deep inside – you know there is some kind of healing going on.

      Thank You for your blessings

  1. Thank you so much for this! I started therapy this week…and my therapist showed me a picture of what healing looks like. Basically stripping away the layers. And the deeper you go (because I’ve already stripped off the outer layers) the closer you get to those really painful parts of you that hold all the other things together in an unhealthy way.

    She said something interesting, she said it can be like ripping out someone’s identity. Essentially wrong beliefs we have held for so long really are a part of our identity.

    It’s painful, but its the kind of pain we learn to embrace, because we learn that in embracing it, we find true freedom.

    Thank you so much for sharing from your heart and I will definitely visit again!

    Blessings,

    Ursula

    1. Ursula – Yes, it’s much like that.. so glad that you are taking steps in getting your life back. it’s a process worth taking.

      Thank you for visiting my blog

      Karen

  2. Oh yes! We’ve got to get down to the foundation to fix the cracks! see the history of what it’s endured…

    beautiful write, Karen! It’s been awhile since I’ve been by, but am so glad your message is the same as it needs to be heard. {HUGS}

    1. Thank you Nikki.. I know what you mean, I haven’t been reading anyone’s blog’s lately, I have been going through some things and taking time to read has been so hard … but I do miss it ..

      Thank you for stopping by.. I always love your 5MF posts

      Karen

  3. I have to admit my first reaction to the word of the week ~ ‘bare’, is to cringe. That’s my stuff and it reminds me I’m still carrying a lot of layers to protect myself.

    So it’s good to hear your free-write about the goodness of allowing yourself to get bare….and that it is worth it to go through the pain and get down to your real self.

    I know I have a lot more healing to do. I just realized what a gift it is that the healing process is in layers. Maybe that’s so to give us time in between layers to rest and integrate. Rather than having to do it all at once.

    I’m really proud of you for all the work you’ve done and the light you shine for others. I like how you just show by example rather than to preach at people. That’s really precious to me.

    1. GEL .. Thank you . . and I agree, the first thing I thought when I saw the word “BARE” was to close my eyes! I had to sit with the word for a while before I could reach inside and find something to truly be with..

      Thank you Gel for stopping by and I have to catch up with you

      hugs

      Karen

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