being good enough
I have been working on a small art project, or at least trying to, and I haven’t had the courage to really dig deep into it, and I think fear is holding me back.
Fear of not doing it good enough, fear it wont be what I hope for!
The same thing goes with my writing in the blog. I used to write all the time, almost every day in my blog, and for some reason I have just come to a complete STOP!
Fear of not doing it good enough, or finding the perfect words to say!
My therapist said something to me in session this morning that really gave me the courage to write this blog and push past this block that has been here for weeks, and that is “you can’t mess up the project your working on, because however it turns out, it will be good enough because you did it“.
I can write drafts, I can make practice journal art pages, I can trial all the things I want to do before the real thing, but truth is, no matter how right or wrong I do it, it will be good enough, because it’s ME and WHO I AM.
I think a lot of my blocks in not writing is fear I won’t do it right, or fear my words are not strong enough. Fear it wont be accepted or make sense. Fear I wont be happy with it and not feel good enough! …
Then there are fears that so make sense … fears that I am still healing and recovering from ..
It stops now! I am going to take my therapist’s wisdom and be who I am no how messy or right I get it. I love the quote
“we can only ever be who we really are, good enough”
I am done trying to wait for the perfect moment to write the best blog with the best words, or waiting to work on this amazing journal page I am ready to work on, no matter how un-perfect it is, its going to be perfect because its me and who I am.
I showed my therapist the “TESTER JOURNAL PAGE” I worked on this past weekend, and he was in AWE of it .. he said to me “this is the test journal art page? to him he though it was perfect as it was, to me it was just a test before the real one is made.. he made me realize that what I worked on was good enough, that is me and who I am.. I created that whether it was the real thing or not.
The same goes with my writing from now on … as I continue to make steps out of this isolation and healing I am working so hard through, I will show up as I am.. messiness and all .. the good and the hard.. emotions and all .. being GOOD ENOUGH for who I am.
It feels good to sit here and write … just letting the words flow off my fingers as I write and not worry if I am doing a good job writing what I want to write.. because this.. today .. will be … GOOD ENOUGH!
April 27, 2015 at 8:53 PM
April 27, 2015 at 8:55 PM
awww Thanks Inza 🙂
April 27, 2015 at 9:56 PM
Write often! It’s great therapy for me as well.
April 27, 2015 at 10:10 PM
KarenBeth, love it when others share their fears, cause we can all relate and realize we are not alone in our thoughts. Beautiful you are!
April 27, 2015 at 10:46 PM
The words are beautiful; they are YOU…and YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!!! I recently used these words from Aibileen Clark from the book/movie “The Help”: “You is kind. You is smart. You is important.” And these I found on Pinterest extend her words: “YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH! You are capable. You are important. You are worthy. You are loved. AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE”.
YOU ARE, Karen!! YES YOU ARE!
But, I do know how you feel about the art journal part and wanting to practice or do a “trial run”. I used to think my scrapbooking was inferior to others that I was scrapbooking with…their pages were so amazing! Then, I thought…I like what I do; I like the way they turn out…but, at the same time, my work was getting better and people are now amazed at MINE too!
Keep writing; keep “arting” and doing what makes you proud and happy and…it will be GOOD ENOUGH!
Thanks for sharing; look forward to reading more!!
April 27, 2015 at 10:52 PM
awwww Thank you … LOVE that quote and love that movie too …. thank you or this beautiful comment and your friendship 🙂 I would LOVE to see your scrap-booking pages someday 🙂
April 27, 2015 at 11:51 PM
I slowly have noticed the stop I don’t have the confidence when it comes to spelling and editing. I have decided to just start and go with it . I am glad I found your blog, I enjoy seeing what other people write about and their art work.
April 28, 2015 at 12:06 AM
I have been following your blog since 3 February 2015. I love your blog for its uniqueness and I check weekly to see your word prompt. The main thing I am looking for is your writing. I can see God working in your life and I love that you are brave. It makes me brave ! Thank you for being brave and sharing. You are good enough. Thank you for sharing
April 28, 2015 at 7:53 PM
awww thank you so much Janine.. that means a lot to me .. your words are very kind … thank you for reading my blog nd taking the time to be with my journey!
April 30, 2015 at 7:38 PM
This is so awesome..Thank you for sharing