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My name is Karen, Welcome to my blog to where I write to connect, write to heal, write to give myself the voice I never had – Now giving myself the voice I deserve!

I am an adult survivor of child sexual abuse! I suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and today I am taking steps to heal from those wounds from my past. I have been in therapy for 13 1/2 years with the same therapist, Andy Dishman, and the journey has been both hard and amazing!

This blog is the place where my voice can raise to the truth of telling my story; to the healing journey it is today! This blog is my writing to connect with others who walk the same path as me.

The quote below pretty much sums up a small version of who I am as a survivor, and the quote reads:

“I am on a journey, with my work, my explorations, and a few sad stories. I travel with a suitcase full of outrageous blessings. I am on a quest for truth, beauty, a quiet joy. I am an artist, a writer, an explorer.”

I am on a journey, a journey to healing. A journey to find the real me behind the walls that were created around me in the sexual abuse that I endured as a child.

I am also a child of GOD.. God is the reason I walk this path and he gives me voice! I love God and all
that he does for me – he is my reason for being!

I am a mom of 3 beautiful boys ages 25, 22, and 19. I couldn’t ask for better kids. I have been blessed by God for 3 of the most amazing kids!

I am married 25 years (this year) to a wonderful man name Tim, who challenges me everyday to be a better person, and reminds me that I am truly loved regardless of my past. He doesn’t see the abuse I went through, he see’s the ME I am, and the healing I am working hard through every-day.

I am a photographer and have been into photography since I was 5 years old. I was a professional photographer for 15 years, but decided to turn my course to writing and taking photos for the love of it. I love capturing life through a lens. Photography allows me to capture life in the moment I want to capture it in – forever.

I am a writer! I have been writing as little as 4 years old. The moment I could hold a pen is when I began documenting feelings and thoughts. I have a passion for words, and learning how to fit words to how I feel inside. Writing has always been such a huge outlet for me.

I am working on writing my book, and my hopes it will take my healing to a whole new level. The name of my book will be “Alone in The Closet” and hopefully I can take a step back into finishing it in a year or so.

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I am an adult survivor of “Child Sexual Abuse” … I was abused as a child both physically and sexually by my older brothers for 8 years. My childhood was nothing short of living in fear and sadness everyday, and today I am finding ways to raise my voice and fight the demons of my past. I am fighting that fear and sadness, and giving myself the voice I never had through my writing.

For years and years I stayed in silence of the abuse I went through.  I got married, had kids, and it wasn’t until 11 1/2 years ago that I decided to let someone into the past I was holding so deep inside. I began my healing path in therapy 11 1/2 years ago.

The one thing I wanted in my life was to be a good mom to my children who would never endure what I endured. I love being a mom, I love being a wife, I love being a child of God, but I always knew that those things were not enough, I needed to get out from the wall that has been surrounding my past.

I was numb most of my childhood; numb to the daily sexual abuse I endured and today it’s about unlocking the child within and healing the child and freeing her into the adult world I am into today.

I am on a journey to heal, and hopefully my story will be told in every way possible to give myself voice and healing. This blog gives me that outlet to not only talking about what I go through on a day-to-day basis, but to connect with others who are on the same path.

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I have been in therapy for 13 1/2 years now. I have a wonderful therapist, Andy, and you will hear me talk about him quite often in this blog. He is the only person who knows my story in full detail. Without him I would have never uncovered the walls that were so high around me and the wounds I keep within.

I have an intense healing regimen.. I go to therapy 3 days a week. I work hard because I want a life without fear, without disconnection, without all that baggage that came along in the life of an abused child. I believe you get out of healing what you put into it, and I put all that I can give into my healing.

When I show up to therapy I work.. I try everyday to uncover the answers to WHO I AM without the abuse covering me. Its hard work, but its good work.

I have come a long way, and I love sharing my stories of my healing with others who also fight the same demons from the past.

I was diagnosed with CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) .. I fight the demons everyday, I just have more ammunition than I did 9 years ago.

I struggle to trust connection, but learning more and more the not everyone is out to hurt me. It’s taken a long time to get there, but I am there …. trusting a little more each day that goes along in my healing.

This is my journey to heal, and I love that I finally have a voice to speak truth!

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This blog is my therapy through writing. I write alongside the process of my healing. You will see me write about my therapy sessions, and the work I do outside of therapy. I will also write about things I am thinking about, thoughts I have, or to give myself voice to what this healing is really about.

I hope to be writing more now that I am focusing more on my writing, and my hope, it works along side of the healing I am doing in therapy. I often read my blogs in therapy to my therapist, so I feel it really helps the healing process.

I LOVE to connect with others who are on the same path, I would love to hear from you all, please feel free to write me an email, or even guest post about your experience with abuse from your past.

My life was nothing but scattered fear and today through my writing, I find ways everyday to heal through my voice to speak. This blog is my healing in real life, as I am taking the steps in my healing.


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  • lacicarlson

    July 18, 2015 at 7:39 PM

    So glad you are healing and you seem like your simply amazing !!! Glad we connected.

    1. Karen Courcy


      July 19, 2015 at 9:20 AM

      Hi Laci .. thank you for stopping by my blog and thank you for the sweet comment 🙂 …

  • Kimberlee

    October 28, 2015 at 3:43 AM

    Thank you for writing this and your blog. It is hard to open up and allow ourself to be vulnerable with people we do and don’t know. I’m proud of how far you’ve come and I hope it continues to get better for you.

    1. Karen Courcy


      November 9, 2015 at 9:08 PM

      Thank you Kimberlee for connecting! thank you for your kind words 🙂 that really touches my heart ….

  • inc

    November 9, 2015 at 7:25 PM

    I believe the 1 in 4 statistic. I too had been sexually abused when I was a child. So many more boys are victims now, I think. It was heartbreaking to listen to the stories of the men who used to be altar boys and who had been victims of abuse by the Catholic priests. Helps to heal by speaking about it and letting it out. Good for you for having this blog to keep finding the grace within. Keep writin’!

    1. Karen Courcy


      November 9, 2015 at 9:07 PM

      Thank you and thank you for connecting to me and my blog… I am truly sorry that you are also a part of that statistic, but you are more than a statistic, you are a HEALER and a PERSON who deserves to live free from the abuse you endured!! I hope to see you around more on my blog 🙂

  • Jovanhanna Kristina

    March 6, 2016 at 11:30 AM

    I’m so happy to have connected with you. I started my first blog to heal from a traumatic relationship. I used that experience and the way I rebuilt my life to help others. You have a lovely family and I love how you are able to share your voice with us all.

    1. Karen Courcy


      April 4, 2016 at 1:43 PM

      Hi thank you SO MUCH for your nice comment .. i didn’t see this, I dont know why I didn’t see this comment… i am so glad you connected to my blog as well.. I will look at your blog as well and I hope to connect more 🙂

  • Rohit Chauhan

    February 22, 2017 at 1:23 PM

    I was searching the meaning of “let go or be dragged” when google lands me to your blog, after that I read your bio. I think its very brave of you to come out and share your story. Keep smiling, stay positive and keep sharing!!!

  • coastalmom

    August 21, 2017 at 7:49 PM

    Your story is courageous! Like a diamond refined and gleaming!

    1. Karen Courcy

      Karen Courcy

      August 22, 2017 at 4:33 PM

      awww thank u so much

  • deepanilamani

    May 22, 2018 at 8:01 AM

    Hello from me. Sorry I am late in connecting with you. Thank you ever so much in coming and reading my articles. I have started to follow your blog and will read up a bit later as I am also a survivor of some sort – depression and mood disorder and sometimes find it difficult to concentrate enough to read and take in clearly. Right now it is a bit late in the night in Aussie so will get to you soon. In the meantime I send you many Blessings of Love, Light and Healing Energies your way and will be keeping you in my prayers. Namaste from me 🙂 <3

  • Breakthrough Veil

    January 17, 2019 at 7:09 AM

    How can you have kids in their twenties when you’re 25? 🙂 You’re beautiful! Love your blog!

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