31 days of reflection {days 13 & 14} making a decision

Woman-writing-letter-on-t-001I am a couple of days behind on the 31 day writing challenge, and I wasn’t sure if I was going to continue the journey of this 31 days – until now.

I struggled with this writing challenge come day 5 and I wondered if this was something I wanted to continue. I wasn’t sure if it was doing my writing and blog good, or if it was doing my writing and my blog harm.

I write from the heart, from deep within! I write as a part of my healing journey, and when I write, it comes from a small spark inside of me that wants me to use my voice.

This writing challenge feels or felt forced; like I was writing just to write to meet the needs of the challenge. I began to think that people would not read my blog anymore because of all the posts – its a bit overwhelming to write all these posts never mind my regulars sitting to read them.

I created this blog so that I could connect with others on a higher level of knowing that your not alone if you go through the things I am going through, and I built a nice safe haven for just that. Since the writing challenge I feel I may have lost that edge of why I am writing.

So I did some thinking. I really dug deep within and asked God what I should do. I decided I am going to continue this writing challenge because this writing challenge could help me to find things outside of the healing box I write about. There may be a great reason why I am struggling to keep up with this challenge and I want to figure it out.

With that being said, I am going to continue to push to the 31 days and see if God helps me to find something I am not seeing, and maybe it will find a way out through my writing.

I don’t want to lost touch with my reason for being open and using my voice to write, but at the same time I want o learn to explore other ways of writing in this challenge as well and see where it takes me.

Now that I have finally sat with it and prayed about it, I feel more confident about spreading my wings a little and being a part of this challenge to the finish line! I look forward to what God brings out in me through the rest of this month in my writing.

 

10 comments

  1. I wrote, today, about how the focus for the challenge became a distraction for me! I wonder if many of the writers feel similar things, as we did. Interested to see if anyone else wrote about it.
    Love Ya Girl! <3

    1. I think the more and more I read, the more I am seeing other people struggle as well. This is NOT an easy challenge. People who have blogs are used to writing on their terms and their heart when its there.. this is forcing us to get IN our head a little more than usual, and it’s not easy… we are just about at the halfway mark … :) thank you for your encouragement :) always

  2. I wrote today on giving myself grace for the days I missed posting on my 31 day challenge. I am struggling through as I started to feel like it was a duty I had set for myself. Then I came here and saw that you are also struggling though for different reasons. I am glad you are going to continue to post. It is an encouragement to watch how others work through the middle and what comes at the end when we persevere.

    Thank you for sharing this today.

    1. Hi Lori … it’s nice to know that I am not alone in this struggle. Its like running a race, we are all pumped up at the starting line, but a few miles in we begin to lose that energy of wanting to run the race! Then we find ourselves maybe stopping and walking some of it, but somewhere along that time we find that fight to keep going.. I look at it as that. I hope that you find your strength to keep writing as well, I would love to see how that ends up for you :)

      Thank you for connecting

  3. I’ve also noticed that people have stopped visiting and commenting on the posts. in the first week and a half my visits and likes increased, now they are falling off again … we are, indeed, at the middle … let’s see what happens in these next 16 days! =)

    1. I understand how that feels … its overwhelming for some to really put in time to write and to read … I have tomorrow off and I plan to stay up late tonight and read and write and maybe even make a new logo on my Tuesday at Ten … I am dedicating myself tonight :) but I understand that pull .. we can do it Andrea.. I am by your side through this hehehe :)

  4. I have gone back and forth on continuing. I am thankful for Tuesday at 10 when I can write about something different than my topic. 31 days of military life is wearing me out. I’ll keep reading. Thanks for sharing your struggle.

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