31 Days {Day 3} ???? writing is a vulnerable process

11382922_582294085244403_1688520786_nI read a blog this morning and this woman wrote about how she paid a consequence for her writing, and her opinions, and how that almost destroyed her.

It really opened my eyes as to just how vulnerable we are when we write in our blog and let the world see us from within.

The quote by Brene’ Brown fits this blog writing perfectly. Writing is about being vulnerable, and having the courage to show up and be seen for who you are and what your deepest thoughts are.

I myself suffered consequences for my writing on so many levels, and it’s a huge reason as to why I have taken a back seat to my writing this past year!

But the one thing I have really come to realize the past couple of days is this – “I am not responsible for how others react to the truth of what I write! I am only responsible for speaking my truth and being the most honest version of myself I can be.

When I first began writing in my blog I feared that my truth would hurt others, or my truth would be too much for others to read. I feared my words being seen for something it wasn’t, or even afraid that my words were not enough to really make my truth shine – but then I came to realize, whatever my truth is, however I wrote it, no mater what words I put out there to be seen – it’s my truth and it’s my story and that is good enough!

being told since I was a little girl that “no one will ever believe me” or “no one will listen” really haunted me for years, so much that when I first began therapy I struggled to connect out of the fearΒ  that those lies and old messages they told me would be true.

But they weren’t! I was heard, I did tell my story, and the best part – I was believed!

I have been telling my story for the past 8 years in therapy now, and every word has made a thin scar over the wound that felt open for years.

I took to my blog to make my voice even bigger and to connect with others who shared a similiar story, and in doing that, I paid a huge consequence; one that isolated me and triggered me into silence once again – until now.

This morning, when reading that woman’s blog, it reminded me that, the most important process of this healing journey I am on is being heard is using my voice to shed light away from the lies and onto the truth.

Coming back to my blog and writing is certainly a vulnerable process once again – but this time, I am not holding myself responsible for anything but my own truth, and that is all God ever wants from us, is to be the best version of who he created us to be.

It’s not going to be easy, and I am sure it will be a bumpy ride at times, but at least I am not longer silencing my voice to the isolation any longer – rather I am using it to reconnect to others and my truth once again.

I can’t wait to see where these 31 days and beyond take me.

 

6 comments

  1. This is such a great reminder. There is power in vulnerability. I know you help more, but know that if one life is empowered by your writing, you have made a difference.

  2. Thank you so much for this post. It is what I needed to read today. I’m sharing a lot of my story in my 31 Days series and, despite the fact that I believe this is what God has led me to do, I am feeling vulnerable and having those moments of worry that I won’t do it well enough or that it is too much for others to read. Thank you for the reminder that we are not responsible for other people’s reactions, just being honest with what God calls us to share. I’m so sorry you have been hurt by others as you shared on your blog but I appreciate your courage in speaking up again- it has certainly helped me today!

  3. Karen, there MAY be a few bumpy roads, even detours or road blocks; but you do not travel this road alone! Know that…

    Thanks for sharing your heart!

  4. We do take many risks when we open ourselves up on our blogs. I know, that I for one, hold back somewhat out of fear! Thank you for this post. It will serve as a reminder.

  5. Karen,
    You have been so brave in all your sharing. You have owned your story and in doing so helped many people find their voice! Find their hope! I’m so sorry to hear about your mom. May God heal that wound. I think of you often my friend.
    You are deeply loved & accepted!
    Lauren

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