But then a quote came to mind:
“the hardest part of any journey is taking that first step”
It’s all about the first step; taking that first step when you can’t see the whole staircase ahead of you – trusting that the steps you are getting ready to take are filled with connection vs isolation.
Maybe this step is the hardest one; taking that plunge not knowing what I am plunging into, but maybe realizing “wait, it’s not as bad as I thought”.
I am sure I will struggle just as everyone else doing the 31 day challenge like – Time – Thoughts – getting the daily writing in on time before midnight – hitting writers block – getting brain craps 2 weeks into the challenge – all to be expected, but the kind of struggle I worry about is getting out of the water before it gets warm and comfortable enough to enjoy it.
Not writing for months I would have to say maybe its about sticking it out until I find that connection again.
My therapist always reminds me that connection is found in the ability to use my voice to be heard, and in that hearing is where the connection is most powerful. I think taking on this 31 day challenge is about using my voice again to find my way back to what I truly believe defines me, and that is :writing and using my voice to connect to others.
I can’t promise it will be perfect, and some days I will fall short of finding the exact words I look to write about, but what I have learned the most is “I am good enough, and this is good enough”.
So, here I am.. day 2, taking the step out and into the very place I have missed most – my blog and writing and the ability to connect to myself, to God and others who are on this journey with me.